New Beginnings

How could anyone explain in words, the fear of starting something new? The thrill of knowing its right, the excitement of the adventure, or the anxiety of uncertainty. How could I put on a page all of the emotions flooding my mind and soul? 

As I write (dictate) this weeks blogpost, I am driving down to Tennessee for candidate school at BIMI. I have dreamed of this moment my entire life almost, and to be on the cusp of being there is so exciting. True, I have a long road ahead before I get to Brazil, and no, it wont be easy, but I am there. I can start now, finally. 

This week I have paused to consider Abraham and his journey of faith. He and Sara were called to go…. They didn't even know where, just to go. I couldn’t begin to imagine the anxiety that must have risen up in them at times. I for one am super prone to over-planning, and the need to feel like I am in control. I can’t imagine being told to just leave home and not know where to go. How much faith and trust Abraham had to simply obey the Lords leading. There are so many ‘hero's’ of the faith in the Bible that I think of often and look up to. These men and women who, against some insurmountable odds, obeyed God, no matter where it led them. These are the people I think about whenever doubt or discouragement starts to set in. 

I know that I am very young, I am aware that I am unmarried, and I have at times, questioned, “is this truly the will of God for my life?” Well, friend, I can sit here and tell you with 100% certainty, that God is in this. I have heard stories of how God provides for his servants, and I have even seen it in the lives of others, but recently I have been the recipient of that provision. I know that I am not the most-extra-qualified person for this task, but God saw fit to call me into this ministry and how could I say anything else but ‘yes!’ ? God has proven himself real to me, especially in some recent days and I am so excited for the future to see how He moves and leads.